I...m..y

I think it is silly. How I spent my days with you everyday, but all that I ever got were missing you more. And I think it is amazing, how this time, the feeling is mutual.

It has not even be a month yet, but trust me, I feel like it has been months of not having you in you physical nature, sitting in front of me. All those stupid quarrels that I always seem to start. All those weird jealousy that causes my tears to flow, honestly, I miss them.

It is weird. How, when I'm with you, crying or laughing were just the same. They were both meaningful, as long as they were done with you there. Sayang, It feels like months that I missed your genuine laugh and smiles, your attentive look, observing me from a close range, your soothing words, and actions, when you know that I needed to calm down. When I was up with my temper, how you were always being patient and waited for me to be the sweet girl that laughed at your jokes again. I really miss the time, when you would listen to me chattering away about my seem-to-be non-ending-problems. When I chattered like a bird that had just earned its beak. When we both get tired doing jobs for each other. When I felt calm whenever I saw you at my helpless time. When we ate delicious food and or new food and started making comments like the food critics we are.

I mean, everything. I just miss everything. I am currently happy with my family, spending time before I would have to get back to UIA again for this upcoming theater. However, I miss you nevertheless. How I wish I an share all your stories, because I am also a part of them. How I wish that you are here while I am smiling away at all the good things that happen. How I hope you are here whenever I am alone, and need a companion. I miss you so much, it hurts, but i also give me peace, as I know that you are there, also waiting for the time that we will meet again.

All these long rants are actually just to tell you that, I miss you. I don't know why, but this is how it is. The time when you said, "insya Allah saya dengan dia sampai akhir hayat saya"... I hold them tight. That, always makes me smile and I really didn't know that you can be such a romeo. And because of that, I am sure, that you love me in your own way, and that in the end, it is worth missing you the way I do now. Thank you,awak. And.....

I miss you.