To your past. I don't care.

I have to accept. That he had his past and I had mine. God knows how jealous I am if I start thinking about all the girls that surround him in the past. As the story of past unfolds, things in the present can look different. But I have to accept one thing. That it was all in the past. And I can't be basing my current love, trust and compassion towards him based on what has been done. Because I love him based on the current person that I found. The new him. The more matured him. Him. One thing you should know. If you let your girlfriend have your FB, do anticipate that she will dig through you past history with girls. So do know she won't read your chat with boys, but yes with girls.

Well, I can't deny I was jealous reading all the texts exchanged and stuffs, but hey, I had my past too. And I should be grateful that although my past was not that hectic, nor am I a popular person or had many boys crooning over me, but somehow, the so glorious, popular and most importantly very kind-hearted man like him decided to accept me. And what I read, was not from the time we started to be together. It was from the time when those people are close and I was far. We barely knew each others' existence. Hence, I decide to stop frowning and take deep breath, and smile. Because once, I was foolish too. Once, I had people who I threw my love too, though it went wasted. Once, I was immature too.and because of that, I believe that I shouldn't judge from what has passed and should embrace the present and the future.

There can be many girls close to him. Before. There can be many hoping from him. Before. But the one that finally secure his heart is me. And I am glad for having a man, so willingly accepting me in the way I am. The fat, grumpy, weird and ordinary me, Someone who makes me smile and smiles back in return. The one who makes me cry, yet be the cause for it to dry. The one who I quarrel with, but always, let me win. The one who treasure like I'm a precious vase, though I mind you, I was just a rose with pricks. The one who I will love now, afterwards, forever, and after.

I mind you, he made me feel special, hence he becomes special. Never treat me like I'm less. I love him. Honestly loving him. And all girls from the past, I mind you, I will be his very best. I'll prove that I am the best choice he'd ever made and I'l prove myself that I am precious for him, and all around me. I'll be the best. I promise.

From me,
A girl who turns 21,
A girl with dreams,
A girl who loves you.

XOXO