let us fix this

hye :)

It has been long since I know what to write about. To write about my life, well it's pretty plain and dry. Living as a law student did make one's life dull. If you stay on the path, being a law student, all that you would do is study, study and study. But if you look at the bright side, it is a course that teaches you professionalism and high moral values :) It is a course that inspire you with tonnes of motivation. Now learning laws sound great, isn't it? ^_^

I am grateful for this semester. Though really, my academic has gone real bad, and I need to do a lot of work catching up, but somehow, all the experiences I gained this semester is totally worth it. I started the semester with fine attendance to class, meeting old friends and stuffs, and then it got boring hence I auditioned for the theater I have worked my ass off this semester, that is Getaran Jiwa.And then my attendance was bad, my revision is rare and I got quite further away from my friends. I don't know how would I redeem this.

I am not a perfect human. I am plain and ordinary with a lot of things that is lacking. A lot of things in need of improving. And I still have a long way to go. But somehow I don't have it less from others. I have very loving parents, friends who know my good and bad and still love me and a man (I would say) who makes me feel loved, always. I actually do not deserve to complain. All of the things that happen comes from my own weaknesses and I am the one who got to fix them.

I thank Allah for still letting me to breathe the air he supplicate for me. And because of that, because I know Allah will never stop forgiving and have mercy on me, I want to fix myself. I am ashamed of Him when he is so merciful yet I am taking advantage. I want to fix my life. I want to live in a right way, in the right path. I am not a good person but I want to fix that. And I want to love in a way I will not regret. I won't let anyone down, I won't give up. I will try although it hurts. I will try although I fall. I am never going to stop trying. And I know if I pray, and ask for His help, Allah will help me. Like he always did during the times when I ask from Him.

Let's try and do this.

And to you, do know that I always love you. Whatever I do, however I act, they are not because I have less love, it is just because I am trying to fix things. Because I want to do it right. Because sincerely, I love you. And I want the best for both of us. So let's both work it out together. Thank you for your love :)