I'm not the the old me anymore

Just because I did not reply to your every text messages, doesn't mean I hate you. Have it ever occurred to you that any human beings on earth would love some privacy time to themselves or maybe they just don't feel like talking to anyone at all or maybe they're just changing themselves?

I think 20 is an age old enough to start acting adult. For me being matured means knowing how to keep your distance and respecting that others have their own life and private matters . Well, at least that is one of them. There are so many other parts of being mature and I'm working on it. Well, people do not take me seriously because I was not acting seriously. Even my feelings is being looked at with disgust without a serious consideration. So, I guess, to deserve serious talks and serious actions, I must first make myself look like I worth it. I've had enough of people thinking that they can make fun of me and get away with it. Like kids do. I'm a lady now, I want a treatment that shows that.

Do not assume that when I'm not being like I usually do, I mean something bad. Like taking revenge on things that is not even related to your life. That is looking down on me, seriously. What do you take me for? Am I that immature? Just know that I'm trying to stop jumping around and act silly because I'm growing up. I need to put a distance with people of different gender especially because it's time to make myself a more worthy woman. Seriously, I'd be married maybe in 7 years time. Though I don't know with whom, I'd want that unlucky guy to think that he has got himself some decent wife.. and also the society. I want them to see me in a good light. Just think, if you cannot be relaxed about me not being able to respond to you everytime you're trying to reach me, which is always, what would your life be like when one day I'd have to ignore you entirely unless my husband allow me to still be close to you. That's why letting me marry your friends would be a good idea. He'd (one of them would) understand.. heheh. K kidding.

Well, anyhow, yeah that's my point. Learn to accept that with what life has given to us, being apart is part of the process to be matured, responsible people. I know my turning point might be too drastic for you, but learn to accept that this friend of yours who always looks like she's a kid is actually an aunty at heart. And now, this friend of yours is trying to be a better person who'll never call you out of the blue whenever she wants to anymore, because she's being independent and different. Because she has had enough of people thinking funnily about her.

I'm not mad at you guys, just disappointed. I wish you guys had acted more mature. But well, that was in the past. Don't do that again if possible to any women at all. And I wish you guys a good life, always. Be successful and be decent. Insya Allah, you guys will make great men one day soon.