What is the answer?

I can't express how envious I am right now to people who knows what they are doing and where they are heading to in life. Right now I can't help but just to feel... I'm helpless. 5 weeks in degree and still I'm feeling unsure with whatever that I'm doing. Feeling like it's right to run away, to turn back, just to realize that that will definitely crush my parents' and every people who care's hope in me.

Honestly speaking, I feel like I'm at a dead end.

How I wish. I just wish  I can live a very confident life like I always did back in the old days. Now i'm just at loss for my own destination. Surely, I know the ending that I want, but how to get there is still a blur mystery too much to my disappointment. I don't know why, I'm all along in this road and yet still choosing, still searching.

Should I stop my way here and change, and turn back? I don't know. I seriously don't and because of that, I'm tremendously in fear.. and feeling insecure