A year that has turned new. A must be made resolution

2014 had passed and believe it or not, I just turn 20 this year. (most people think that I'm an aunty since I was from 2). SO! A (cliche) New Year Resolution!

Gosh I do feel really nervous because turning 20 just mean that I'm so much nearing to my reality. Not long after this moment (5 or 6 years more) I'll have to have a house, a family, a car, a house and most importantly, a life that is lived full of responsibility conducted by my own self. I know I'm the oldest in my family and my mom and dad would hope for the best from me. SO, what am I doing right now? Am I crazy? *cry*

My first semester of university still has not end yet and I'm in my study week now. To be honest, I do't really use my study week that well and I feel really guilty for that but there I am, turning to my laptop to watch youtube again and again. When I'm away from my bed I'll be like: What the hell did I do? But when I return, there I am watching again. I must be really crazy I guess.

I should change my way of living. How can I ever lead a great life like this?

That's why, I'm trying to aim that my next semester in February will be better and I really hope that I'll bring myself to be that girl who would push myself beyond my limit and get the best result again like I did before. Pray for me!