Bliss

I am feeling content with my life. Look around, it's Ramadhan and though I spend most of my time at home doing nothing and being alone, at least at dusk we gather for iftaar. Sometimes there was fight, sometimes we laughed together, but yeah, that's life. What's life with too much sweetness? You'll need something bitter. It balances the taste of life.

Result was out a few days ago. Guess what? I did not even put that high of expectation to myself this time that I thought, I'd be thankful enough if I pass this semester. I thought I was going to fail. I thought I had no hope. I just really hoped Allah would help me and He did.

Guess what? I did better this semester than last semester. I was ecstatic! Totally. I did not get that excellent of a result, surely I did not, but I still did very well looking back to my previous semester. I improved. Maybe Allah paid me for the effort I put in the early of my semester. My effort to try to improve. Though It did not go until the end, well, I put trust in Him, and though I did not deserve it, He gave me something I did not expect I can get. Really, Alhamdulillah for that.

I'd not stop trying to be busy. I'll just try how to make my life less messy. I'll improve more next semester until I am able to reach that 3.0 pointer and be competitive in this world of laws. This is real. Now is the real deal. I chose this path, I need to make it right. Oh my, I am nervous. I'd succeed, I'd try, indeed.