Is this that feeling?

Can this feeling be denied? Do I fall that hard on him? Why hasn't my heart stop pumping so hard? It makes me restless like hell. Dang it. I hate it. I hate falling on someone. Someone please stop me I can't stop my crazy heart. My mind has tried hard to control but my heart doesn't listen. Ugh. I just wanna be friends with him that's all. I don't want this but it's here and I know he doesn't care but I'm too shy I can't even say anything to him. What's wrong with me I don't know. This is out of control and I really wanna stop it. Trying to be professional with hope that if I do I would forget this crazy feelings. Because I never save any feelings for people I need to work with. If I had the feelings it would go.